I need toothpicks...

to prop my eyelids open. Baby season is in full swing here at City Bats Conservancy. I haven't even been home a week and i already have 3 pups in need of round the clock feedings. Exhausted but enjoying these little sweet peas.

Ireland recap is coming....really.

off to catch a few hours sleep before round 79 of pup feeding.....

Irish eyes are smiling

I'm back!

Ireland was every bit as amazing as I had hoped. Love the country, the people, the countryside and even the cities.

My first trip abroad was so positive and really put a lot of things in perspective. I feel like I have opened a door in my life that I desperately needed to find and step through. Greeting me on the other side was a big, wide open world that I had been afraid to explore but now I am anxious to see.

I will post a day by day once I recover from the (slight) jet lag and resume a sense of normalcy in the next few days.

What an adventure it was and one I will repeat. However, a new and exciting place to visit is already forming in my mind for next year! More to come!

Leaving on a jet plane

today is the day. I board a plane for a 10 hour flight across the atlantic to Ireland.

I am scared shitless but excited.

I am already homesick.

It will be great though if nothing else...ITS IRELAND!

Deep breath......

down to the wire

Ireland countdown has begun! I leave in 8 days and am nervous and excited. I still have a ton of stuff to do but the list is getting done.

Chris started the Rabies vaccine series to take care of the bats for me. I'm a lucky gal.

In other news, Merlin's "mass" was an impacted scent gland. I really need to chill out and stop jumping to conclusions =P

Blah

I'm sick

=(

There must be something in our water...

So now Merlin has a mass on his lower lip. It appeared rather suddenly or at least I only just noticed it. The latter doesnt surprise me since he is all black (including black pigmented gum tissue) and isnt keen on anyone messing with his mouth. Its solid feeling and I cant determine whether it feels attached to any bone or muscle. I am desperately hoping and praying that it is not.

He's 13 now and Piggy's 14. They both will be having a birthday soon too. I hate the fact that they are getting older and I think about it all the time. I cant imagine my life without them.

Not that they are going anywhere anytime soon(knock on wood)! This mass could just be a cyst (please, please, please let it be a cyst). Thursday he has an appointment for a dental and to either remove or biopsy the mass. Its in a bad spot for removal, not much skin to be able to close.

Meanwhile, I made an appointment with a therapist to sort me out. The insomnia is unbearable and my social anxiety is pretty bad. As in I push people out of my life kinda bad. I dont know if this will help since I am notoriously bad at spilling my guts but I need to at least really try.

The countdown to Ireland has officially begun. I am so glad to be going but also really nervous!